i am: bone tired, happy, conflicted, and nervous.

Bone tired because I have 4 jobs. And it's Christmas which means shopping in my spare time, and trying to figure out everything that needs to get done before 2009 comes to a close. Currently, there is no down time. My down time is when I have 5 minutes to sit down and either eat, call friends n family, or make business calls. I am burning the candle at 5 ends, and the candle only has 2.

Happy because I love where life is going. I love Sunday Open Stage. Tonight, Shain decorated the place to look Christmas-ey, and we had a potluck. We had a lot of spoken word. And, we had a lot of music, including several impromptu jam sessions that were Incredible. We have amazingly talented artists coming to this space. Tonight we had a woman who got up and did stand up. It was her first time in the space (we had several super talented newbies), she was really funny, and I'd never seen anyone do stand up at Open Stage before. And we were asked to be part of a fringe festival. Excited. Happy. Soul food.

Conflicted because, with all of these changes, I'm not sure who to trust. It seems like everyone's warning me about someone else. I meet new people every day now, and many more people know my name than I can reciprocate. Which makes me feel terrible. But anyways, I'm working with all of these new people, or getting to know old friends on new levels, and I just don't know which people to trust and which ones not to, yet. I'll figure it out over time, and for now I'm just keeping myself on an even keel, but it's a little disconcerting to have so many people tugging me in different directions.

And, in closing, I'm nervous that I will not wake up in 5 hours like I need to. I have 4 alarms set. I am so so so tired, though. Think good waking up thoughts for me.