drinking beck's makes me feel like i'm in ewa again. Things seem much less desperate now. Life is a little more settled and worth living.

The boyfriend and I had our first argument today, if you can call it that. And not that I break things off at the first sign of trouble, but I wonder how much of him is for me. If we'd just be better off hanging out. Though, his cousin's daughter ran into his room yesterday and called him "Auntie Dana's man!" and ran out giggling. He's a part of my family--my hanai family--and I don't know where to go, if we should call it quits before it'd be painful to see each other down the line, or if we should stick it out to see if it'd go somewhere real. I'm too tired to think about it tonight.

I worked the Ziggy Marley concert. It was fun, though it felt like he was in a routine--the songs just didn't have much heart behind them. Afterwards (which, he didn't even do ONE hana hou, btw) I went into the back to clean, and there he was, five feet in front of me. He looked at me and smiled. Again, being the non-star-struck person I am, I just smiled, picked up the recycling and left the room. Wanted to be done. It was a looooong day.

I'm enjoying where things are. Now I just need to get paid.

Oh, and, I'm still longing for that bath. Just an hour undisturbed. Sounds like heaven to me.